Today, up on this hill I'm counting all the killers They sway as they swarm A look of gluttons in their eyes They mutter as the body loses warmth They pick your bones like locks inside a tomb And take great care to not take care of you Here's an unexplainable one Here's an unexplainable one While I was learning to live We all were living a lie I guess you got what you wanted So I will settle for a slaughterhouse soaked in blood and betrayal It's always somebody else Somebody else was me You want the real smile? Or the one I used to practice Not to feel like a failure? I don't need you to do it for me I don't need you to understand I don't need you to hide it from me I just want to feel like any other man I won't show you the whole story I won't show you the aftermath I won't show you my allegory Don't look away Here's an unexplainable one Here's an unexplainable one Here's an unexplainable one I'm not ahead of my time I just drew the first breath If I'm alive tomorrow I will alleviate the pressure By cutting you out of me I found my bottom line Dead on the front lines I know I'll never go home So set fire to your ships And past regrets and be free I don't need you to do it for me I don't need you to understand I don't need you to hide it from me I just want to feel like any other man I won't show you my whole story I won't show you the aftermath I won't show you my allegory Don't look away Here's an unexplainable one What have you done? What have you done? While I was learning to live You taught me how to die I guess I got what I wanted Another needle in the back through purified scarification It wasn't somebody else You fucking did it to me You want a real smile? I haven't smiled in years