Family Badflower

Taste bitter on a guilty tongue
It's hard to see I'm the chosen one
Fake friends with a camera phone
Ugly, drunk, cold and missin' home

This home of mine, I see it in my dreams
But everyone looks happy, and everyone still likes me
This home of mine, I miss it all the time
What happened to this family? What happened to this family?
I let you down

Texts, calls, hugs, birthday cards
Being thoughtful can be so hard
First 15 years I'm the favourite son
Last 15 years I'm the hated one

This heart of mine gets blacker all the time
Affection makes me nauseous
Believe me, I don't want this
I hurt my blood tonight, I made my sisters cry
I never say 'I love you' even though I want to

I'm just my father's son, my mother's kid
A shitty brother, I'm nobody's friend
And this is all my fault, I only make you cry
I don't deserve this family, you're better off without me

'Cause I let you down and I lost my fucking mind
And everything got messy and everyone got angry
I cursed my blood tonight, it happens all the time
Is everyone against me? Has everyone goddamned me?

What happened to this family?
What happened to this family?
What happened to this family?
What happened to this family?

Don't hate me, don't hate me
Don't let me drown

I hate goodbyes, so cringy I could die
We only say 'I love you' 'cause that's what we're supposed to
And most families lie, but I meant it every time
And treat you like you're worthless, I never said I'm perfect