Hate Me Blue October

If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon
I was just calling to see how you were doing
You sounded really uptight last night
It made me a little nervous, and a lit-
And well, it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous, too
I just wanted to make sure you were really okay
And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication
You know I love you, and
Take care, honey, I know you're under a lot of pressure
See ya, bye bye

I have to block out thoughts of you
So I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach
Leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape
To remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head
That make a porno feel like home

There's a burning in my pride
A nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you
Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me?
Just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
See what's good for you

I'm sober now for three whole months
It's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart
Is the one thing I won't touch again
In my sick way I wanna thank you
For holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself
You were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions
On things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself
When it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away
That I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart
To leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
See what's good for you

And with a sad heart, I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street
For every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry
And I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling, "Make it go away"
Just make a smile, come back and shine
Just like it used to be
And then she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah, ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally
See what's good for you

For you
For you
For you

If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me

Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!
Hey Justin!