Happy birthday So make a wish Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been Would you've been a little angel or an angel of sin? Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes I paid for the murder before they determined the sex Choosing our life over your life meant your death And you never got a chance to even open your eyes Sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you fought for your life Would you have been a little genius in love with math? Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad? Would you have been a little rapper like your poppa The Piper? Would you have made me quit smokin' by finding one of my lighters? I wonder about your skin tone and shape of your nose? And the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow? Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen Happy birthday, love you for whoever you would've been Happy birthday All I thought was a dream (make a wish) Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday) All I thought was a dream (make a wish) Was as real as it seemed, I made a mistake I've got a million excuses to why you died Other people got their own reasons for homicide Who's to say it would've worked, and who's to say it wouldn't have? I was young and strugglin' but old enough to be your dad Fear of being a father has never disappeared Pondering frequently while I'm sippin' on my beer My vision of a family was artificial and fake So when it came time to create I made a mistake Now you've got a little brother, maybe he's really you? Maybe you really forgave us, knowin' we was confused? Maybe every time that he smiles, it's you proudly Knowin' that your father's doin' the right thing now? I never tell a woman what to do with her body But if she don't love children then we can't party Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen Happy birthday, love you whoever you would've been Happy birthday All I thought was a dream (make a wish) Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday) All I thought was a dream (yeah, make a wish) Was as real as it seemed, I made a mistake And from the heavens to the womb, to the heavens again From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin Maybe one day we can meet face to face In a place without time and space, happy birthday From the heavens to the womb, to the heavens again From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin Maybe one day we can meet face to face In a place without time and space, happy birthday All I thought was a dream (make a wish) Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday) All I thought was a dream (make a wish) Was as real as it seemed, I made a mistake