Waking up to no meaning I stare at the ceiling Count the imperfections that Surround my being Can tell how I'm feeling And it hurts more when you ask There's a hole in my head and heart But I'm a long way from the start There's a hole in my head and heart But I'm a long way from Back when I couldn't move, was frozen I told myself, it's all good It's only chemical It's only chemical It's only chemical I'm too shy to speak up Guess I have my reasons For telling little lies About those around me and what I could be It's eating me alive There's a hole in my head and heart But I'm a long way from the start There's a hole in my head and heart But I'm a long way from Back when I couldn't move was frozen I told myself it's all good It's only chemical I want to scream, but it won't help I've created my own hell And it's only chemical It's only chemical It's only chemical I find comfort when they say You can't sit and count the days Until it ends There's still times I want to break Everything I've ever made But I've come a long way from I've come a long way from Back when I couldn't move Was frozen I told myself it's all good It's only chemical I want to scream, but it won't help I've created my own hell And it's only chemical It's only chemical It's only chemical It's only chemical It's only chemical